Life is SO tricky…
Someone was brought into my life and I’ve never had such a strong connection with someone that I had just met and I couldn’t help but smile. ALL. THE. TIME. I let my walls come down and I was ready to truly care for someone again.
Then after a VERY short period, they were taken away and with no way of getting them back except for maybe time or maybe there just never will be the chance again with that person (that seems extremely unfair!)…. I don’t like either of those options! But I would prefer the first choice if I have a choice that’s for sure. Even though it was a short period of time, there are still tears (I at first felt silly that there were actually tears over this person after such a short period of time but then let myself accept the tears because I was actually feeling sad for what they were going through and for the loss of a great person in my life). So maybe this is all about life tests: a test of my patience, a test of my faith... I hate tests but I guess this is what life is all about and if I continue to do what I’m supposed to do it will work out how it’s supposed to… but its still SO hard! Good thing I have great parents who take me to sushi to vent!
I always relate songs to what is going on in my life at the time or I will discover a certain song that just totally hits me at that time and really touches me. One of my favorite songs I always turn to when I’m down and just bummed is called “The Heart of Life” by John Mayer (my roommate Emma witnessed this tonight as I listened/watched the live version of this on my TV on repeat while laying on my bed and she had to ask if I was ok! I’m grateful for great roommates!). The words are beautiful and really mean a lot to me. My favorite lines are as follows:
Pain throws your heart to the ground
Love turns the whole thing around
Fear is a friend who’s misunderstood
But I know the heart of life is good
Aren’t those words beautiful and true!? The heart of life IS good. Yeah there are ups and downs and times where we just don’t get it, but in the end, there is so much beauty in our lives that we can’t forget about them. So today I was sad, tomorrow I’m going to be not as sad and work on my test of faith that everything is going to work out how it’s supposed to as long as I do my part. So this is me be vulnerable to life and having faith. Who knows, maybe it will work out how I want it to right now, maybe that person will discover they deserve better than what they’re going through right now, maybe it won’t work out and there will be something better out there for me… I guess this is the heart of life, a whole bunch of uncertainties but at the end… Life Is Good.
Enjoy one of my favorite songs and I hope it touches you as much as it does me!
"The Heart Of Life"
I hate to see you cry
Lying there in that position
There's things you need to hear
So turn off your tears
And listen
Pain throws your heart to the ground
Love turns the whole thing around
No it won't all go the way it should
But I know the heart of life is good
You know, it's nothing new
Bad news never had good timing
Then, circle of your friends
Will defend the silver lining
Pain throws your heart to the ground
Love turns the whole thing around
No it won't all go the way it should
But I know the heart of life is good
Pain throws your heart to the ground
Love turns the whole thing around
Fear is a friend who's misunderstood
But I know the heart of life is good
I know it's good
